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[14 Jun 2004|12:19pm]
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly
motivated. Sharp
thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves
attention. Deep
feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm
Standpoint. Needs no
motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left
brain). Loves to dream. Strong
clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in
the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
literature and the arts.
Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless.
Not having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift

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[13 Jun 2004|05:15am]
so yesterday i woke up and went to work which was terrible....it was so busy and many people came in that i wanted to shoot in the face....one guy came in with one eye and the other swollen shut and told me i was the most beautiful person he's ever seen and he wanted to feature me in his next movie (the previous ones he'd directed were: charlie's angels: full throttle, gothica, and his first, dazed and confused) so i said yes and he filmed me as i checked out the next 874 people in line.
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[16 May 2004|01:34am]
oh yea i also got suspended last friday for having a water fight
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[16 May 2004|01:28am]
and this is what i miss most about summer

i can't wait until more nights like these
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[06 May 2004|07:11pm]
i should have known....actually i did know...i just tried to act like i didn't think it'd happen this time...good fucking call
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[02 May 2004|12:52am]
well im off to lay in my bed for a while...

tomorrow's going to come soon and there's nothing i can do about it...
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[02 May 2004|12:18am]
i'm so tired...tired like my head hurts and my eyes can't barely stay open....but i can't stop thinking long enough to go to sleep...

thinking about what i'm going to do when i push you away for good...and how fucking upset i'm going to be
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[02 May 2004|12:02am]
I'm sorry for being suck a fuck-up....i don't know why it's so hard for me to belive someone might actually like me....but it is....it's like the one person that i care most about...i can't show it...because i'm so afraid that when i do it's going to come crashing down and I CAN"T DEAL WITH THAT AGAIN!.

and i'm sorry, and i feel terrible because he's so nice to me and i'm just so scared and worried that the more he finds out about me, he'll realize that i'm not good for him and i can't deal with that again.

i started out really good, really trusting and letting myself fall for him, and now i'm just so scared of getting hurt that instead of keeping him i'm pushing him farther away....

i know he's telling the truth....

i wish i could just gurantee that he won't leave, even though it would be my fault this time...

i'm overreacting....i can't help it....i want to be with him every second...but he doesn't know that...
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[30 Apr 2004|06:25pm]
wow...i haven't been here in a while....let's see....

i got my alex back <333

everyone has been kinda bitchy lately too, it makes me feel a little bit like shit....today i hung out with Hana...i haven't in a long time...

oh yea i quit dance too
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[27 Mar 2004|03:07pm]
i'm so full of anger right now i just can't even control it i'm shaking so bad and don't know what to do...there's never anytime to just not do anything...i'm so sick of always going somewhere and having to do something i can't take it anymore i need a fucking break
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[21 Mar 2004|01:47pm]
jer and mike perhach have been hanging out at Mackins the past two nights....its cool but i'm afriad they're gonna see something or hear something and go back and tell alex...because me and him talked on saturday night and we're cool now i guess...i mean we're as good as we're going to get i supposed....so i don't really want to ruin that...

i dunno.....its so confusing.....
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[21 Mar 2004|12:07pm]
we won the state championship!
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[16 Mar 2004|07:13pm]
...all i wanted was to see him tonight...
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[16 Mar 2004|02:01pm]
so the prom is coming up...May 21st....

Reasons not to go:
1) $9o per couple
2) even if i go halfs its still $45
3) dress shopping
4) hair appointments or just plain old hair
5) its bishop o'reilly
6) i hate proms/semis/dinner dances/anything else you'd like to call them

Reasons to go:

.....hmmm looks like i'm drawing a blank......

But i did get asked....by John Eustice....he promised me a night to remember....i kindly turned him down....and then threw up.
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[16 Mar 2004|01:42pm]
well me n alex are over...officialy...i mean i think we werent together for a little bit before that but no one had said the words....so i dunno....i thought i'd be all lonely and stuff but then i realized its no different bc we weren't really together that often when we were goin out.....but anyway he's telling people i cheated on him....and everyon knows that i didn't....but whateva he can say whatever he wants...i'm not gonna start n e thing about him bc i'm not like that.....

plus everyone already knows my side of the story.

soooo n e way....we got out early today! so that was good bc i really didn't feel like being in school any more...

i've been hanging out with joel alot lately....he makes me happy too....so everything is wonderful.
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[14 Mar 2004|11:36am]
last night was insane....Kyle came back from georgia for the week so we all went over Mackins (me, joel, lyss, devin) and then cat and amanda came and then nolan and wuss (sp) came and it was just nuts her dad caught me puking in the back room though...

i wanted to stay all night but my mom came for me at 1:3o....but it was aight
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took from jp's....i don't know why he has like 4 of them...but i'm only doing one... [13 Mar 2004|10:42am]
Band: Something Corporate
1. Are you a male or female?: Drunk Girl
2. Describe yourself: Hurricane
3. How do some people feel about you?: Ruthless
4. Say something to your significant other: I Want to Save You
5. How do you feel about yourself?: Me and the Moon
6. Where would you rather be?: Cavanaugh Park
7. What do you want to be when you grow up?: 21 and Invincible
8. Describe how you live: Break Myself
9. Describe how you love: The Runaway
10. Words of wisdom: Not What It Seems
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[12 Mar 2004|05:11pm]
chewey just walked by my house....he has a fro
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[12 Mar 2004|04:57pm]
i wish i had the power to make things appear, like i have the urge to make a bracelt from those beads that you used to make when you were in like the 3rd grade....but i don't have any beads or string....wait what was that plastic stuff....gimp?? haha oh to be young again.

i remeber Kathy and i used to make tons of those...

so anyway i saw a truck today that said feese on it and it make me chuckle and think about Alyssa because she always says "what the feese" and it bothers me a lil.

but even though i'm not going on the retreat this weekend i'm laying low....haveing a "personal retreat" if you will....probably i'll just go out to see Tony...that boy makes me happy.

anyway Thursday was a wierd night....first Jimmy texted me then Omar called and Then Joel came over and it was like 10:3o and alex came over and joel and matt were there and it was very very awkward....but joel and matt made me watch my first ever episode of south park so that was quite the experience.

my dog is being a terror lately, he chewed my phone charger in half, ripped up my box of tissues and gave me a wet willy...but despite all that i love that thing....and i don't care how many things he chews or how many times he misses the newspaper <33
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[12 Mar 2004|04:43pm]
Threesome Fun by Mckennat
Favorite Color
Date of ThreesomeDecember 24, 2004
Location of Threesomein a movie trailer
First PartnerBritney Spears
Second PartnerJoel Madden
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

...and the countdown begins.....now.....
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